Breezeblocks

When do breezeblocks become a home?

Door to door, my better half has amazing chances in a place 323km from where I was born and bred. I left him in that town today, and when I returned to the house we created, it was nothing without him. I walked the stairs but there was nobody to open the doors. I had to find my own keys. I turned on the heating  but it got too hot because he wasn't monitoring the temperature for us. I sat on the sofa but I was lost without him playing his music too loud. Is that a home?

There is a car that has parked in the same spot outside our house for three years. Every day. Same spot. I would debate the point of even having a car if I was the owner. But it is there, and I know it will be there at whatever time of day I arrive home. I always know the forth and sixth window-ledges are a little bit out of line with the other ones, and that my key has never properly worked in the door. I know that the bin room has a weird black fleece hanging up. And it scares me. I know that my neighbour is out flyering for a club night I will never go to, and that the other lady always leaves her binbags out for too long. Is that a home?

How do you decide where you belong? How do breezeblocks become home?